I Know What ‘Choice’ Feels Like…

My friends, family, even my own children have voiced passionate opinions over the recent uproar and rhetoric regarding conception-related choices. While I tend to keep my personal opinions on heated topics to myself, I do want to share a bit about what I know. I know what it feels like to watch an ultrasound monitor … Continue reading I Know What ‘Choice’ Feels Like…

Go…to the land that I will show you

Ten months ago we sent our 15-year-old son 6,500 miles away to the Holy Land. He’s part of a unique, 3-year program with students from literally around the world, including Kenya, Ethiopia, Germany, Holland, Japan, and Panama. But a few months into the program, he was physically sick and struggling emotionally. Because of the closed … Continue reading Go…to the land that I will show you

Celebrating my Divine womanhood

I’m in my luteal phase, an important concept I only uncovered today. Since I’ve been feeling so seemingly crappy, and it’s not yet time for my ‘period’, I decided to pause and investigate.  Even as I type this, some part of me is saying, “Shhh…don’t talk about these things.” As a teen, my education about … Continue reading Celebrating my Divine womanhood

My heart and soul long for closeness with G-d, my true self, my people and our land

I spent part of the morning studying a map of Israel. While I've never stepped foot in/on the Holy Land, my son is in high school there this year. Each time I thought I would get to travel there, G-d decided it wasn't the right time yet. My heart and soul often feel oddly disconnected … Continue reading My heart and soul long for closeness with G-d, my true self, my people and our land

Good (G-d) Vibes Only

By Mindy Rubenstein  14,560  I calculated approximately how many hours I’ve spent actively doing healing and growth work during my adult life -- in essence, trying to feel happier, to ease anxiety, depression, and fix old wounds.  Though I earned a graduate degree and spent two decades in my field trying to rely on my … Continue reading Good (G-d) Vibes Only

Strong and Courageous: ‘We’ won today’s battle with the Yetzar Hara

We won today’s battle with the yetzar hara, the evil inclination. Those insidious thoughts that told me I’m lacking — that others are better, smarter, more motivated and successful — were weighing me down. Then I read a quote from psalms — “Look to the Lord: be strong and courageous,” it said. But the words … Continue reading Strong and Courageous: ‘We’ won today’s battle with the Yetzar Hara

practicing the art of surrender and gratitude in the jewish new year

I surrender.My family and I moved to the Jewish community of Surfside last month, right before our son left for high school in Israel and I spent the afternoon weeping in the airport, along with the other moms.Then came the high holidays, an intense time on the Jewish calendar that includes the New Year, Day … Continue reading practicing the art of surrender and gratitude in the jewish new year

Permission to Feel

I keep saying and thinking that being a writer isn’t enough. But what if it is? Just getting up everyday, feeling gratitude, loving myself, my husband and my kids, and writing. Everyday. About healing and G-d and business and baking challah and beautiful red star-shaped flowers falling to the grass. About storm clouds in the … Continue reading Permission to Feel

Surrender and Celebrate!

And the children of Israel did according to Moses' order, and they borrowed from the Egyptians silver objects, golden objects, and garments. -Exodus 12:29-51 (Parsha Bo) להוּבְנֵֽי־יִשְׂרָאֵ֥ל עָשׂ֖וּ כִּדְבַ֣ר משֶׁ֑ה וַיִּשְׁאֲלוּ֙ מִמִּצְרַ֔יִם כְּלֵי־כֶ֛סֶף וּכְלֵ֥י זָהָ֖ב וּשְׂמָלֹֽת By bringing tambourines into the dessert as they fled Egypt, the women showed their unwavering faith and trust in … Continue reading Surrender and Celebrate!

Letting Go

The Lord said to Moses, "See! I have made you a lord over Pharaoh." אוַיֹּ֤אמֶר יְהֹוָה֙ אֶל־משֶׁ֔ה רְאֵ֛ה נְתַתִּ֥יךָ אֱלֹהִ֖ים לְפַרְעֹ֑ה וְאַֽהֲרֹ֥ן אָחִ֖יךָ יִֽהְיֶ֥ה נְבִיאֶֽךָ: There are times when our animal drive (our inner Pharoah) seems strong, and the best way to overcome it is to use our power to confidently demand that it go. The … Continue reading Letting Go